armour glow

I was in bed crying, and the night was really bad, but I started to read The Perks Of Being A Wallflower again, because this is next to my bed, and always makes me feel better. I wish I could explain it, but I think only Chelsea understands. It is just, you only need small things, and everything else goes away. And it made me warm, and I thought of music I wanted to listen to, and things I wanted to say, and things I wanted to do, and how the crippling darkness can't fight that much of an armour.

The characters feel like the best friends I ever had. And I also suggest listening to Basement Parties by Matthew Pond PA while reading. I changed the lyrics in my head, because it feels more pretty, more sad. I think that is the way of things.

I'm tired of going to these basement parties, where everybody wants to leave their bodies, I'm hiding in the bathroom with no witness, I'm speaking through the door about some sickness, we don't mind silence, we don't mind sitting, I can be quiet, you always hear me.