Never was for now.

i wish i could be loved. that's all i've ever wanted. i don't care that i'm an ugly bird in a...why can't you see through that? all of my heart is here. every ounce of love. but oh fate! it's only ghosts, satellites, blood fights. i'm feeling stuck again, and i know i can move. i just haven't.

fuck it. this night, fuck it to hell. i can't share this, people just laugh and act cruely, never to your face. this isn't fucking pretty! i'm not fucking pretty. spit on my ugly face so i can...

find beauty. the steam in my veins, the glass run under my palms. we just think we're dead at night, so with first light, completely fucking, awed with life. the mirror of us shatters, the pressure releases.